I have been loving the feedback from you guys! Thank you! So...how did your week go? Mine went really well and I had a lot of "those days" - I found it really did make a difference to focus on the good days and really be thankful for them. Instead of a weekly challenge, that will be everyday living for me! :)
How did it go for some of you?
I've been doing alot of thinking...It is hard for me to imagine that by the end of 2012 I will have an adult-child. My oldest son will be 18. It is a really strange feeling because I feel like I was just 18 like 5 years ago! How does he keep getting older when I don't? (I know wishful thinking...you don't have to remind me:) - I'm 38, I had Kylle when I was only 21. A young mother. An excited mother. An inexperienced mother. That was then, this is now. I know other people wait until they are older, more settled to have children. I always wanted to be a young mother (not necessarily that young) but I enjoyed the relationship I had with my mother very much and wanted a similar relationship with my children. Well careful what you wish for, right? I wouldn't change a thing! Honestly! But I think it's an interesting debate whether it's better to have children young, while you can still keep up with them or when your older, more settled and perhaps better prepared?
I don't know if there is ever the "right time" to have kids, the right time tends to be when you discover you're pregnant. There is much to be said for waiting to have children. I am more confident now, more comfortable with who I am, we make a little more money then we used to - but do I think my children's upbringing would be any BETTER had I waited, I doubt it. I think there is something to be said for a little naivete. I think that in our 20's we are still dreamers - things were hectic. Things don't normally go according to plan and at 22 I found myself heading for divorce, working and going to school and raising two children on my own (of course with the help of my incredible family and friends, but you get my drift:) I was scared, naturally, petrified I would screw up...and I'm sure I have along the way. There is no "perfect mother," things will sometimes go wrong, kids will sometimes do things we don't wish for them or don't want them to do, but then we have to remember they are on their own path, with their own goals, agendas, life lessons. We, essentially, are their tour guides (ATM's, TAXI's, etc :) . Holding the flashlight to light their paths, or clearing some rubble.
Everyday I am learning - I think I've learned more from then, then them from me. Tomorrow I'll be a better mother from what I've learned today. So as long as we keep learning, growing, loving - AGE is but a number - LOVE is but the simple truth of any mother.
