Tomorrow I'll be a Better Mother...

I have been loving the feedback from you guys! Thank you! So...how did your week go? Mine went really well and I had a lot of "those days" - I found it really did make a difference to focus on the good days and really be thankful for them. Instead of a weekly challenge, that will be everyday living for me! :)
How did it go for some of you?

I've been doing alot of thinking...It is hard for me to imagine that by the end of 2012 I will have an adult-child. My oldest son will be 18. It is a really strange feeling because I feel like I was just 18 like 5 years ago! How does he keep getting older when I don't? (I know wishful thinking...you don't have to remind me:)  - I'm 38, I had Kylle when I was only 21. A young mother. An excited mother. An inexperienced mother.  That was then, this is now. I know other people wait until they are older, more settled to have children. I always wanted to be a young mother (not necessarily that young) but I enjoyed the relationship I had with my mother very much and wanted a similar relationship with my children. Well careful what you wish for, right? I wouldn't change a thing! Honestly! But I think it's an interesting debate whether it's better to have children young, while you can still keep up with them or when your older, more settled and perhaps better prepared?

I don't know if there is ever the "right time" to have kids, the right time tends to be when you discover you're pregnant. There is much to be said for waiting to have children. I am more confident now, more comfortable with who I am, we make a little more money then we used to - but do I think my children's upbringing would be any BETTER had I waited, I doubt it. I think there is something to be said for a little naivete. I think that in our 20's we are still dreamers - things were hectic. Things don't normally go according to plan and at 22 I found myself heading for divorce, working and going to school and raising two children on my own (of course with the help of my incredible family and friends, but you get my drift:) I was scared, naturally, petrified I would screw up...and I'm sure I have along the way. There is no "perfect mother," things will sometimes go wrong, kids will sometimes do things we don't wish for them or don't want them to do, but then we have to remember they are on their own path, with their own goals, agendas, life lessons. We, essentially, are their tour guides (ATM's, TAXI's, etc :) . Holding the flashlight to light their paths, or clearing some rubble.

Everyday I am learning - I think I've learned more from then, then them from me. Tomorrow I'll be a better mother from what I've learned today. So as long as we keep learning, growing, loving - AGE is but a number - LOVE is but the simple truth of any mother.

One of those days!

Thanks to all of you that have read and are reading my blog. It means so much to me that you'd take the time out to share this with me. I am touched by the overwhelming support of family, friends and customers!! You guys are awesome!

Enjoying a lazy Sunday today. It is not often I get a weekend off.  The weekend thing sucks but I keep reminding myself, it's only temporary (everything is) and when I'm a sought after screenwriter with my name on the lips of every A-list (and B-Z list, too!)  Actors and Directors; when I'm buying my dress (red) for the Oscars, I will have the choice. Now? Not so much. Besides as most of you know I actually like where I work. 

I am aware it is quite a blessing to enjoy where you work. Most of us spend more time at work than at home.  It's important to find a place that adds to your life as opposed to sucks it out of you!  Mine can do both, I admit. We've all had "those kind of days" You know the ones, It could be anything from a serious case of the dropsies, a crabby mood you just can't shake, running late and getting stuck at EVERY. FRIGGIN. red. FRIGGIN! light., diner ding-bat - where "it doesn't matter what you say, it aint gonna stick," - ("Maam, I asked for eggwhites." Doh!) to shutting your jacket in the car door or the horrifying "kerplop" of your cell phone in the toilet -  you name it and most of us have probably experienced it at least once, sometimes twice!  You know the days where it would seem anything that could go wrong, inevitably does.

I find when I'm having "one of those days" I'm extra focused on all those little nuances- I repeat to myself several times a day (and to anyone who will listen!) "UGH! I'm having one of those days!!" and they will nod with an empathetic, "Yup, I know what you mean. " So I was thinking.... why not declare "I'm having one of those days!" when I'm having a good day! Focus on all the good things happening around me. I sure have a lot more good days than bad so, my thought is if I focus on the good, I'll see more of it! It's worth a shot. I'll let you know how I make out. Let's try the experiment together. For one week - focus only on the good, if your day is heading in the opposite direction. Stop! Switch your thoughts and pay attention to what happens. I want a full report. So far today, "I'm having one of those days!" and I feel incredibly lucky!

First of Many

Okay.... here goes - I'll be the first to admit, I am the walking cliche - a writer stuck in a waitresses body. It's not hard to find one of those here in sunny California -  a hop, skip and a jump from infamous Hollywood!  I'm cool with that.  Waitressing is a perfect job for a writer - you have character sketches, nuances, behaviors, it is detailed research, folks!  I enjoy not being stuck behind a desk (funny coming from a writer, right!) at least not day in and day out.

You will find this blog will cover a gamut of interesting topics, people, places, parenting, relationships...I guess it's my blog... so I can write what I want, quite a luxury. I will do my best not to bore you to tears.  I intend to keep your interest piqued, your funny bone tickled and your wheels spinnin'.  Man, I got my work cut out for me, huh!

I work in a family-owned neighborhood restaurant.  "Sometimes you want to go where everybody knows your name"... and this is that place. That's one of the coolest things about it, there are days when I can walk through my station and know everyone in it. It's unique and sure makes the time spent there much more fun. I'm a happily married mother of a 12 y-o, 15 y-o and a 17 y-o.  I'm fortunate to find so much satisfaction in my quiet life!  My real passion yearns to break free - write! The only thing stopping me is me. Until now. This is how I intend to flex those writing muscles and hope to hear your thoughts, feedback, stories...etc, I want to open a conversation with you. In this crazy world, with 24 short little hours, it means a lot to me that you took some time to read this. Thank you.